AS MEMORY CRUMBLES TO PARTICULATE..........AND CEREBRAL MEMORY OF THE MEMORY IS OBLITERATED BY NON-UTILIZATION AND FORGOTTEN, BUT FOR THE 'DUST' HAVING FALLEN INTO THE WRINKLED GRAY MATTER SULCI OF THOUGHT




going through stacks of notes........a single, dingy, double-sided page, bearing my notes and instructions for filming one of my oddly philosophical/psychological studies.......the films are all gone with the wind....and most of my directorial notations.......this single page seems very remote, now....I wish that I had made notations that would be still meaningful....that I'd not tossed the old film and early VHS recordings.......The page seems like some relic from a dig into ancient, tombed parchments..........the paper, crumbling in my hands...... Anyway, it is just a memory....a souvenir... of the process that sets future destinations for thought and doing..

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